Finished hat #3. This one went super quick especially since I didn't have to "frog" it half way through. That was very helpful. This gorgeous aubergine belongs to Melissa, my sister in law. I hope she likes it and isn't just like, "Oh, yeah. Thanks!" My next knitty natter will be--SURPRISE-- Another hat! This one will be a camping hat for Adam. I am excited because they go so quickly and give me a sense of much needed accomplishment.
So I had a doctor's appointment today, and it went really well. She said that I looked really good and had a glow about me. It seems that every time, just before I get to her office, I have some epiphany. This brief spark of light where everything just makes sense. I realized, even though I have been told so before, that a lot of my issue stem from self image. I want people to like me so much that I WAY over compensate in the friendliness department. I can see people physically getting annoyed with me. It is like the just know I am bullshitting them. I can see the eyes roll and the fists clench. As with all things lately, I am just happy that I am now aware of the behavior and can try to control and/or avoid it at all costs. If people are going to like me and enjoy my company it is not because I am trying to sound like an intellectually their peer, or say hello to them every single time they pass my desk. They are going to like me because of me (or in spite of my transgressions).
Looking at where I was three months ago to now, I am very satisfied at the person I have become. I am more like the kind of person I want to be. Progress is definitely good.
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