Finish What You Start...

I have always had issues with my bouts of crafting.  I would never actually finish what I had started.  In my craft/fishing room, I have UFO's of all different kinds.  Two quilts, one scrapbook, two crocheted baby blankets, and tons of stamps.  I now wonder why my husband says that I need a hobby--and then need to stick with it.  When I find something new I am enthralled and obsessed with it.  I want to do it all the time, much like a little kid with a new toy.  Eventually the glimmer wears thin and it becomes old and not so interesting.  I am hoping that the whole knitting thing isn't the same.  Because I have quit smoking at the same time, I think this one might last.  Or at least I hope it will.  This is all ironically systematic of my BPD as well.
So I have beat my own stereotype and finished my first knitting project.  I didn't tell my husband what I was making, but in true Suzy style, I gave in and told him half way through.  To help my battered ego, he told me that he could tell what it was.  I made a Transformers dishcloth.  However, will probably never use it for dishes.  So I  shall call it a face cloth.  I was so proud of myself.  My next project is a baby blanket for my sister in law.  There isn't much pressure yet, as she isn't due until June, so that is very helpful.  I am trying to throw another dishcloth in before then.  As of this morning I am already half way done with it.
As far as my new life's journey, I have been failing and progressing about equally.  I haven't been to the gym since Wednesday.  I am actively trying to be more aware of my surroundings and my reaction to them as well.  I think that this is very important.  I am working on a manifesto.  Listing the things I believe in and the things in myself  that I want to work on.  With the BPD you are ever-changing.  A constant mesh of the people around you, but never your own person.  I want to have that identity, not the emptiness that I have felt for so long.  It is just getting it all down on paper that is so hard.  I guess that just leaves more to work on...